speaker 1:  this call may be recorded press one to accept hello hi hello can you hear me the refrigerator making it kind of weird Choice lately okay and another is I got a little when somehow I don't remember what but one night when you were working on taxes I got locked out of the Fidelity credit card account you remember that I'm still out is it locked you should be able to just reset the password I don't think so just ask security questions so
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speaker 1: want to login as Dustin do fo and I put in the password I think it is it says your access has been blocked you can reset your password on fidelity.com from your desktop computer oh okay so I need to go to a page to a laptop right
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speaker 1: I mean I can just reset it I guess can you just say that that's what it was that's that's what it happens when you first started working on taxes and then you probably realize that all of our credit card interest rates went down with yeah and you know that Jamie put you in her household some senses no she told me to have you put me in your household well I I think she wanted to run it by you and she ended up telling you that that was what she thought would be best but then she called me and she was like oh I realized I should call you back or I you know just say that's how it's going to be and I basically told her I was concerned about my Medicaid okay because because they were I felt that all out that application based on you not being in our household okay so so she ended up deciding there wasn't any reason that that she shouldn't claim you but I think that she didn't bother to go back and tell you that right is that okay yeah and then you said all the payments are stopped on all the student loans yes okay the doctor said that personality disorders don't have anything to do with medicine cuz it's just very different okay and she does suggest that I switched to a different class A drugs I haven't had a chance to look into them yet okay so she didn't write the prescription but she's willing to like call it in for you if you tell her that you're ready yep is that correct yes okay it does she have anything to do with the personality disorder diagnosis or is she kind of like your therapist like that doesn't even matter she says that that would be a therapy thing but she doesn't have anything to do with think I get that she doesn't have anything to do with the treatment does she have anything to do with I don't know interpreting the you know the scaled scores from the whatever know she just does do you like sir I do like her but I went through all the trouble of going there for my appointment and when I went in they said they would send you the link to do it over the phone like over chat and I said no and they're like oh well we were just talking about that yes he's going to call you in a few minutes. So like all over the phone which is fine I guess but just not super happy with about this honestly because they shouldn't have made you drive their own right it's not okay so I'll be honest it's probably better than anything we have in Nassau County and this coronavirus thing is probably revolutionising everybody to be able to do stuff you know by FaceTime forever in the future and I'm paying their best still won't be able to talk to him I'm just saying like the whole like oh gosh it's all the way in Jax Beach House and the Chance it'll end up being up to you if there's ever a week you can't make it yeah you know what I mean I was thinking about trying to switch oh really did Megan or Colby give you anything further north they gave me another option when I was there that I will have to figure out what it was again I can't remember right now but I don't know where it was basically dead from Jacksonville yeah I mean I just have never heard of any such thing as a great psychiatrist and Nassau County have you know seems intuitively like that would be a big city thing well well I mean somewhere like Nassau County could have somebody I just if there was I would think I would know about it like everybody would know you know yeah seems like it discipline where what makes you create would be practicing a lot and having a big breadth of experience in that way to do that would be to be related with a big medical system in the City Health Network in Nassau County yeah and you have Baptist Health in Nassau County and those you know what I mean people could practice under that who came from Jacksonville sure no I bet the whole stick on that entire industry has something to do with insurance though what do you mean Lake the practitioner knowing how to play the game to code things in a way that they're going to get the most coverage based on different plans and only accept certain plans to get you know what I mean yeah I think that's a huge part of it because if people can't get in your door because they can't afford you cuz it's going to be out of pocket that's it's just you know what I mean you're gonna have a different practice Yeah but if it's all going through Insurance then the consumer doesn't really have that much of a say and how the care goes cuz they're stuck with you so right could do a lot of volume without being good now you know you've been out of honey like like six weeks right I guess you should have used to be like about the have your 7th session with your counselor at this point that's fine doctor crops planted be on like twelve months terrible so she just kept me up the same dose of Prozac though okay and what else were you thinking it's sterile find a pen and have a panic attack see evidently can't write me a prescription for Claritin got weird that is really weird right that is really weird because of what is insurance like heard you know medical practice and variants still crazy it's still crazy like if she can't you know what I mean there's some liability reasons she shouldn't be prescribing that and she should be practicing anywhere anything. I think she shouldn't em think she she should be able to make that prescription yeah he's a doctor and then I've got Trazodone and Seroquel is sleep medicines but I haven't been taking them cuz I've been so tired wage are they in a safe location my dresser do you feel like that's safe there yeah you mean cuz of the kids or teenagers I think the only one that did do anything is Klonopin and I keep that in my car and I don't even know what to do to you just doesn't seem to do anything that they act like a big deal it's because you only take it when you're having a panic attack right oh did you talk to your doctor about panic attacks yes what you say it's part of why she would like to try a different class A drugs it says she would prefer to find antidepressant eventually that deals well enough with my anxiety also so that I don't have to have any Klonopin never wage or barely but it's a pretty rare so but didn't you tell her that you have a very specific trigger for your panic attacks and and she doesn't think you should just work to not have that anymore I mean that's all therapy she's just drags yeah it's just I would think even as like the drug person you would be wanting to point somebody to try the non-drug remedies wage so that they won't need you
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speaker 1: that's what I'm going to pick I think she's also reading something into the fact that she's got my medical history so she knows that I've been on Zoloft and Lexapro before and that those weren't good and of those three in that class Prozac is the one that's supposed to like give you more lifts or something like I think she's just taking it to mean that that's good for me I think I mean I am just imagining that if you're only in a panic to State when you take a panic State when you take klonopin off then it's going to try to bring you back to Baseline and then that if somebody was already healthy and Baseline and they took a Klonopin they would probably get two completely different effect is Maybe that's why they're wanting you cuz they want to make sure that you don't take it and find out that it's a good feeling to have it when you're not panicking Maybe it's supposed to be like addictive is the scary thing with it the next time you might take one just cuz you're whatever a little bit slightly anxious and then the next time you might take it just cuz you think it'll help you relax after work then you have an addiction I mean she knows everything right like does she know about the taxes no oh isn't it I mean therapy well I know it's just that you know what I mean if you if you were riding your bike for twenty minutes a day then you know what I'm saying no I don't have a bank or whatever if you were if you were going for a you know forty-minute walk these those are things like like take pretty much anybody you know and have them spend their time the way that you've been spending your time and wage they would have depression and anxiety problems so with the solution then be for that person to get on medication or with the solution be for that person to go back to spending their time in a healthy way yeah I'm not saying you don't have depression I understand that that that you have what you have I just think it's sad that the person who's giving you the medication with
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speaker 1: constantly reminding you that their lifestyle changes that would give you better results I could give you better results cuz it's the real goal to be well or is the real goal to figure out a way to sustained an unhealthy lifestyle oh did you finish taxes I was working on the menu okay and did you ask her about bipolar screenings no it's pretty clear by the time we talked about the other personality thing that that wasn't really her thing okay it's funny it doesn't I mean I don't know does not feel different to you than how Megan approached is it yes or no I think that it's a different dynamic because you asked about people who may know you better and have more of a relationship and even that limited with Megan um you know I just Christian people with like genuine concern and took us yeah I guess I just always assumed that I always assumed that all psychiatrists would be like Megan like no like it's like like a psychiatrist should be better than a psychologist because they should have all the training of a psychologist plus they're going to MD you know what I mean like like that should be like a double professional like a double doctor so they should be more able to anybody with like a fellowship and dealing with mine stuff I don't think they yeah actually off which I can get back to what I was saying earlier to I think so buses Psychiatry is psychology or whatever is think it's hard one like experience broad experience like doctor crap did you know that he testified he testified in the Aileen wuornos case I'm not familiar with that one, home on stir monster you didn't watch monster with me is that the boxing lady was that the boxer girl boxer no not a boxer yeah Charlize Theron Charlize Theron played a serial killer like probably fifteen years ago and it was a real case in Florida but probably from before we were born like in the early eighties or something yeah you don't remember that movie song really she would like to remember memory movies I guess huh do you remember that other movie The Mentos kind of not going to do that I remember that phrase really yeah you don't remember what it was about no seriously I remember that phrase know it has something to do with memory like that was like a thing wow that's amazing that's so amazing Justin Harris yeah yeah I think is it yes crop testified for the defense in the Aileen wuornos case yeah yeah well I think yeah I mean I don't know all the details but but I remember the movie so I know it's like the basic case and obviously I'm from Florida where people remember it she she was the one who was like a prostitute right she just like she'd just like getting somebody's car like a truckers car at one gas station and ride with them to the next gas station and in between try to you know get them to pay her for sex and she just sometimes she do like 15 or 20 at night but then like she got off to a 30th and she gained weight realized she couldn't get paid as much as she used to and she only might could get trashy trashy trashy and defend her then so then she she started getting them to like pull off to a secluded place you know like like she was going to let him pay her but then instead of doing it she would kill him and take his money hopefully yeah and she did it over and over again so I think initially said that she was a competent to stand trial month but then eventually when she did stand trial he you know not ever said she was crazy and all that seems like a safe at on that one have you seen any of the Tiger King memes yet is it just my friends all right over the place everybody SCA today about what to do about the paint sprayers he said he would take it out on Saturday and see if it was working in this Matt he would get Kevin to take care of it oh wow what truck driver
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speaker 1: Texas fell asleep at the wheel lost control over turns his load that caught fire with toilet papers s today today and the rest of it that didn't burn the house down yeah you know I don't think with all the emergency stuff they making truckers work more than their like normal legal allow and you know under that is the case of them did you know that I might not ever be able to fly again I I guess I was thinking not commercially I figured you could privately not too sure probably not as I said which is something that I don't know I got to look into how it all works I think being a fibber is much more important reason to not let somebody fly airplanes them being depressive thank you for your input what that's not what you think no lying to get a license is an extraordinarily serious character issue not let him to get a life of his land to get my medical yeah yeah that's a disqualifying character problem the you think being depressive is a good reason for people to form the medical yeah really why you can use an airplane and hurt somebody do you think being depressed it makes you want to hurt other people painted or you could try and hurt yourself and hurt somebody in the process my thinking is rules like that stopped you from getting help for so long maybe I mean I know that was on your radar when we were in high school you know how long it's unnecessarily stigmatizing to the point that you end up with people in the air who aren't getting the treatment they need that lying is Israeli really really a problem that's bad do you think it's weird to have the kids are going to grow up with this like notion that sometimes they they make a nice yeah in your hands the the question is is just the only one there will be because you know what I mean yeah in a way it's a little weird that it didn't happen sooner I guess sorry this happened cuz of the same thing exotic animals in China and crossed over into humans it just didn't make it quite as far and they're already reopening China and like yeah was that sorry the Corona de yeah I kind of wonder if I had it a couple of Saturdays ago when you were sick yeah yeah just see more and more and more the places that they're finally getting like math testing done yeah you know they're like testing whole groups of people who who aren't coming forward saying them symptoms just to like get a Baseline and a population you know and finding out like half of the people who have a positive test don't have any symptoms and then if they have who had a positive test and did have symptoms less than half of those match the actual symptoms that have been being advertised like they don't have a fever. Huh that's pretty wild by the the actions very so much I think it's immune systems cuz you know it goes in your throat first right yeah so like it attaches the one you know the things in your throat multiplies their life that goes down into your lungs I bet it could look you know they talk about like oh there's there's tons of coronavirus has like you know it's coronavirus all around it's most people would have you know had some of them went there younger and have a community to it and it's just like a it's just like any other cold so that if you're someone who like has a good immune system and you've had a lot of colds before I bet I would think that your body would like have some ability to like recognize it as a distant cousin of something it's faced before right okay but before it really settles in the lungs well I haven't called to ask me yet so not sure what's the holdup is I kind of wonder if my dad had it when he had pneumonia in January cuz I should be developing a blood test to tell you if you like have an immunity to it specifically right
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speaker 1: you feeling worse it does make me wonder if they'll eventually say you can't build houses I mean you're definitely I see this list right here you're definitely on it as essential yeah I know for now I just wonder let's see I just think no matter how bad it is they can't keep the world economy and close very much longer regardless people are all acting like the government can do this out but it's like government doesn't make things not even money they don't they literally don't make anything only way the world goes around as if people work it really seems like a movie like an impossible movie like Bird Box huh did you say I said oh like we should have like Snapped into World War II mode a lot quicker I don't know I don't get it I don't think we could stop this thing well I mean I don't I don't I don't think we can stop it from happening I mean like we should have no no I mean I mean not when they draw that curve here's the problem when it goes back down they don't draw what happens next you know what I'm saying you flatten that curve and then you let people out the original ginormous curve then happens just later in time than it would have yeah so I'm saying they wanted to convince people to flatten the curb but they might have gotten more compliance if they were honest about what happens next and this whole time people are sitting at home like catching up on Tiger King yeah like what if what if Netflix was putting a warning on before Tiger King started that said warning you are wasting valuable time you could be learning to sew PPE you know what I mean and then like the government was putting out YouTube videos teaching everybody how they could so BBE in their homes and like we were all laughing so even I know that those work though I think it's just like a feel-good thing
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speaker 1: are you talking about oh the circle yeah but I told you that there's a guy from us house he figured out how to do it with the do what's actually in in ninety ninth grade with the surgical sheeting that they put under their instruments oh yeah yeah so I'm just saying if we were approaching it the way that they approach things during World War Two where everybody was expected to like all hands on deck like this is an emergency and we all need to get ready like I don't know if if they were warning people not something we have when people put together ventilators yeah yeah I see and the other super read the site where I'm working was telling me last week about the fight him and his wife were having about how much time you spend playing video games cuz she doesn't want him to play him so much me see pull down low I don't mind if you play video games I just don't want you to play them for six hours on a Saturday and so you said to her well I don't have to play every 6 hours but what if I play him for three hours of this is like but you don't think that that kind of Lifestyle my understanding is that that lifestyle that mentality comes from nope yep no real deeper purpose in life like you're talking about a guy in the country are not giving anybody a greater purpose off we're telling everybody is okay if you don't make any money we're going to take care of you and everybody else is taken care of too so don't worry about your neighbor's life talking about a guy who shows up to work to do what he has to do in order to pay his bills and relax on the weekend over and over and over and over for forty years yeah and that's completely different than like the messages of like Uncle Sam needs you and we you know what I mean yeah do this with your Saturday you're going to be a hero yeah I think the culture kind of follows the messaging a little bit yeah it's and people can rise to the occasion if you you know put a rifle in their hands yeah sewing machine or whatever it is they need to have right and pretty soon they're not playing video games anymore saving lives yeah and well I don't know I just I just know like I know back during World War Two thank people would have figured out how to clean their bottoms without paper you know what I'm saying yeah like whatever that I don't even know but everybody would have been like happy to like do their part by learning how to wash strips of flannel or so now this has been scary for the kids they're just taking in sheds yeah that's good and Saturday night there were like I was going to go back to our real Church home and they talk a lot about 1 to go to school you know but really so you think they would rather be in school well I mean you have to understand right now is different than you know homeschooling where you can let go to the beach and stuff right like they'll be like can we go to the playground know there's a God of Iris you know yeah you know it's just not the same can I go over to visit the laws now there's coronavirus like yeah any going anywhere would be like a welcome change song I was on the phone Brianna today Simon came on sat on my lap and said who you talking to you I said is Brianna he said is Lily Kate there and I said yeah I said is there something you want to tell Lily I don't know if you've ever heard his whisper that's so quiet you can't hear anything so I have to make him say it three times so have her ten Lily if she knows about the coronavirus long as I said so I've been wants to know the gate those about the coronavirus and she goes oh yes she knows all she is in fact right now all of my kids have this toy bat that they're throwing around the yard and they call it the Corona bottle at this church did you see that they they like you know those quarters they do periodically with like designs on them Q 12020 that's totally a bat yeah from Texas
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speaker 1: no that's crazy that's crazy you know Lindsey Graham is leading the charge to shut down the wetwork that's right I did not see it coming home to surprise well I read an article today that was talking about that and it was saying how the Chinese government should set them down and that was like a game I don't know it just goes against my sensibilities but obviously they should be doing that I think the real answer is for us all just boycott them which in any other Chinese everything is that really practical yeah I mean obviously you can't boycott everything but I'm saying like I would just rather change the changes like that happen organically from within culture and I think it makes sense that that's point oh I'm sure that they bought the grams tactics are going to be is how can we put pressure on the Chinese government absolutely not even the government like even in there I don't want their government telling them what to do I want them to choose it they should see the from the economic pain and social know because you you talking about you're talking about millions and millions and millions of people living in China all it takes is 10 all it takes is 10 people who don't care or really yeah ten I mean there's there's no group of millions and millions and millions and millions of people where you don't have 10 people who are only thinking about Settles yeah but the chances of something happening and that scenario would be minuscule yes it has like a customer so there's not actually going to feed again you're not going to have you're not going to I'm not going to have Chinese people change their individual Behavior it might if we stop buying all their stuff and their economy suffers and they know that it's because we're home now the situation but they they're so different than us Dustin like they're like very economy is communist you know what I mean yeah like with the money flowing that way and the government being the one that's impacted by a boycott and in their minds the government is the same thing as the people because there's things work communally like they're going to expect that to come from their government and they're going to desire that to come from the government that's just their culture I have to go to the bathroom let me okay missing okay are you asking about this are you mad at me this morning what did you say I was asking if you were mad at me okay do you think I should try and get in with the other office that honey Lakewood recommended or go back to Doctor crop you should go back to Doctor Cross is Jacksonville people they seem like did they have an in-house psychiatrist I'm sure is that all the way in Orange Park though they have offices like all over Jacksonville the one that has go into is like I don't know it was it was just a random one cuz they had the closest available that soonest availability do you feel like there's a reason that may never followed up on giving you a recommendation that I think is because I was Dr Crofts office that he basically is probably qualify retired so okay okay yeah so what do you think his assistants actually do all day long if he works so yeah like you think they're just there for his convenience yeah pretty much that's a cushy job yeah I got to go I'm sorry okay that's all right love you I love you goodnight goodnight goodnight goodnight